For several months since my graduation day, I’ve been jobless.. Nothing to do in sby.. It’s been a pretty boring life for me, until one day my father suggest me that maybe it will be better if I move in to jkt.. I’ve been waiting to move out from sby since like forever so it may sound weird but the moment I had the chance to leave sby, I’m not happy but confuse.. I suddenly having a lot of doubt before I leave sby n moving 2 jkt.. I’m worried about my dad, who suddenly got sick (but he recovered now), my mom n grams who might get lonely, my dad’s job (who’s going 2 help him), who do I know in jkt, what do I know about jkt etc.. It seems there is a lot of reason not 2 go 2 jkt.. But of course there is always an excuse 2 avoid it if things that u need 2 do is d things that u don’t want 2 do the most.. So I guess I can say the real reason I’m myself pretty scared moving 2 jkt..
Other reason maybe even though I’m very bored in sby, living in sby is very comfortable for me.. I don’t have to worry about paying rent or electricity or other bill and my parents always support me.. I have my own bedroom with air conditioner, my private tv, ps2, dvd player, and tape recorder.. What else do I need? I also hv a lot of friends here and they always care 4 me.. Life has been very good on me here in sby..
But then I remember that change is a part of nature (ratatouille).. Its d only thing in this world that would never change.. Change is suck.. No doubt about it.. We have 2 learn new things, try 2 feel new experience, meet new people etc.. But all of that could come 2 worse when u failed, when the fact suddenly hit u that is not the right path.. Since of course there is no guarantee that u will be success.. Then u should start all over again n hoping that the next step u take may lead u to the right path, which of course there is a possible chance u might failed yet again.. But there is something that change also offer, a new life.. U can start your life again n this time u can do it as crazy as u wannabe until u need to change again..
I suddenly remember a scene in television comedy series, F.R.I.E.N.D.S, when Rachel wants to move to Paris n she said she’s scared n Ross try everything he could to make her stay in New York including seeing Rachel’s ex boss.. When Rachel got back her old job n so she didn’t have 2 move to Paris, she’s suddenly felt sad because she do look forward moving to Paris, to experience working in fashion capital of the world so she’s said.. When Ross ask her that he thought she’s said she scared, Rachel said that it’s a good scared, like the first time she move to New York she’s scared or the first time she found out she’s having Emma (her daughter) she’s scared..
So I guess it’s the same with me.. It’s a good scared.. Thought I hate leaving behind my life chapter in sby, I also can’t wait what life might bring 4 me in jkt.. Don’t know what might happened at the same times.. But that’s the good things about life rite.. Coz if u know what might happened, its not fun anymore.. The good thing about life is its unpredictability n we should be grateful 4 it.. Yup it’s a good scared.. Its exciting..
Other reason maybe even though I’m very bored in sby, living in sby is very comfortable for me.. I don’t have to worry about paying rent or electricity or other bill and my parents always support me.. I have my own bedroom with air conditioner, my private tv, ps2, dvd player, and tape recorder.. What else do I need? I also hv a lot of friends here and they always care 4 me.. Life has been very good on me here in sby..
But then I remember that change is a part of nature (ratatouille).. Its d only thing in this world that would never change.. Change is suck.. No doubt about it.. We have 2 learn new things, try 2 feel new experience, meet new people etc.. But all of that could come 2 worse when u failed, when the fact suddenly hit u that is not the right path.. Since of course there is no guarantee that u will be success.. Then u should start all over again n hoping that the next step u take may lead u to the right path, which of course there is a possible chance u might failed yet again.. But there is something that change also offer, a new life.. U can start your life again n this time u can do it as crazy as u wannabe until u need to change again..
I suddenly remember a scene in television comedy series, F.R.I.E.N.D.S, when Rachel wants to move to Paris n she said she’s scared n Ross try everything he could to make her stay in New York including seeing Rachel’s ex boss.. When Rachel got back her old job n so she didn’t have 2 move to Paris, she’s suddenly felt sad because she do look forward moving to Paris, to experience working in fashion capital of the world so she’s said.. When Ross ask her that he thought she’s said she scared, Rachel said that it’s a good scared, like the first time she move to New York she’s scared or the first time she found out she’s having Emma (her daughter) she’s scared..
So I guess it’s the same with me.. It’s a good scared.. Thought I hate leaving behind my life chapter in sby, I also can’t wait what life might bring 4 me in jkt.. Don’t know what might happened at the same times.. But that’s the good things about life rite.. Coz if u know what might happened, its not fun anymore.. The good thing about life is its unpredictability n we should be grateful 4 it.. Yup it’s a good scared.. Its exciting..
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