I was born on the 1st September 1986 morning in Surabaya, the first of the three siblings.. My father gave me the name Rendy from his favorite singer Randy Crawford, maybe he want me to captured some of her talents in music, well I obviously didn’t have any of her talents.. I enjoyed listening to all genre of music though, from jazz to pop, from rock to hip hop, and sometimes dangdut also.. I like Mandarin songs too, and one time when I listening to a mandarin song, a friend asked me whether I can understand the lyric of the song, I said to her, “nope but music is a universal language so I don’t need to understand the lyrics to enjoy listening to it.” I like to watch movie too, I enjoyed all type of film except horrors, not because I’m too scared (I didn’t believe in ghost or any form of that kind), I just don’t like being surprised all the time, with people screaming all the time around me.. My biggest pleasure however is reading books.. I can spend countless hours, without eating and sleep and forget about the rest of the world, with just one good book.. When it comes to a good book, I understand no such thing as ‘too expensive too buy’.. I admire many people who can write such things and presented it in a way that just astonish me.. I enjoy sport in certain degree, like swimming and hiking in the mountain.. I used to join a swim club and a hiking club.. I like to watch football too, although unfortunately I have no talent to play it.. My favorite club is Arsenal and AS Roma and hoping one day I have the opportunity to watch with my own eyes.. I have a great respect in language and hoping to master many foreign language, like Mandarin, Korea and Spain.. For now I can speak well in English and French, in addition to Indonesia my maternal language and Javanese my region language..
I have hard times on defining my character.. This is some of the character that I believe I have in mine.. I like solitude and I enjoy being alone, that doesn’t mean I don’t like spending my times with people but when I’m alone I can be myself.. I don’t need to please anybody and I can do whatever I like to do without worrying other people’s opinion.. Yet I understand the importance maintaining relations with people and I enjoy hanging out with people that I’m already comfortable with, people who I know can received me for who I am.. People’s first opinion about me is that I’m very quiet, I do, especially in the environment that I’m not comfortable with.. The real reason is actually because I’m very shy, I’m not used to start making conversation with people I barely knew, but if you can be friendly at the first place, I’ll treasure you as my friends.. My ex used to say that I’m indifferent in relationship, that’s true, as I stated above I like being alone so there’s a time when I don’t like being disturbed, that doesn’t mean I don’t care anymore because I do, I’m just not really good in expressing what I feel and honestly I don’t like expressing what I felt.. I like to keep something on my own.. When I like on doing something, I’ll try my best to make it as perfect as possible, I have the perfectionist side on me, but if the things is something that I don’t like to do I can be very ignorant to it.. I’m easily change mood, sometimes I surprise people by getting angry just because of a small comment they made of me.. I’ll treasure my family and my friends above anything but God.. I do believe Eleanor Roosevelt’s words: he who loses money loses much, he who loses a friend loses much more, but he who loses faith loses all..
What I don’t like is people break their promise or their commitment.. I’ll forgive you but its hard for me to believe in you again.. You can say I’m someone who forgive but hardly forget.. I hate to wait or doing nothing useless.. I despise people who lied and got caught of lying.. I mean come on if you dare to lie in my face, the least you can do is to keep your story straight, I’m not that stupid.. I don’t like to meddling into other people’s affaires so if you don’t want me to know, you can just said directly to me.. I’ll respect people who can speak directly but in the kind of rude way.. If you have a problem with its better to say it to me, rather than saying to other people who might didn’t have anything to with it and I believe it solves problem much faster.. If its my mistake, I can say I’m sorry, I’m not someone who just won’t admit if they wrong..
In the world where lie, treachery, cowardice, cruelty etc is consider common practice in our world, there always a person that stand firm to their integrity and the value they believe for and those are the person I admired, like Mother Theresa, Wilma Rudolph, Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr, Marie Curie, Nelson Mandela, Aung San Suu Kyi, Oseola McCarty, George Washington, Abraham Lincoln and from Indonesia Muhammad Hatta, and many more.. This are some of the exceptional persons that use their life to make the world become a better place and they gain more in doing what they believe, more than just a public recognition.. I enjoyed reading their story to enrich myself with the merit they have.. I believe character is destiny.. Their character allows them to reach their positions in human history..
What I scared the most is about the future.. As I stated above, I don’t like surprises and with the unpredictable future, its so scary for me to think about the future, knowing that all of what I already planning may turn out into a disaster.. I’m also scared that I didn’t put enough effort to really discover my potential and maximize it, to do what God intended to me.. Thinking about those two things can drive me crazy, but I learn to hope for the best and have faith.. I know I have God, He who created me, must give some purpose on what my life should be.. I have some regret, my biggest regret is not using my time well.. I’m not studying hard enough in university, I spent most of my time playing around or if not I’m daydreaming that one day all of this is going to get better.. I know I need to push my self harder..
My biggest aspiration is I can leave something memorable to this world and the world become a better place because of me.. I didn’t know how to do it yet, all I can think is to write a book as a part of my legacy because I believe book can resist against the time like what Francis Beacon write in his book, the Advancement of Learning: “We see then how far the monuments of wit and learning are more durable than the monuments of power or of the hands. For have not the verses of Homer continued twenty-five hundred years or more, without the loss of a syllable or letter; during which time infinite palaces, castles, cities have been decayed and demolished.”
And most notably I’m hoping that throughout of my life I know that I’ve done my best, I’m hold on to the value I believe, I enjoy my life and have a great one, I have no regrets and I keep believing in God..
Jumat, 20 Maret 2009
Jumat, 13 Maret 2009
The Presence of Destiny
I went to Senci, a mall in the South Jakarta last Sunday and my friend told me that next week is a long weekend (there is a national holiday in Monday), several of my friends is planning to buy a ticket to come back to Surabaya, our hometown and asking what am I planning to do.. Suddenly I felt of going home.. I can’t think of a more perfect moment to surprise my parents than that.. Another reason why I want to go home is my grandma is sick and in Saturday one of my best friend in university is getting married, so I can come to her wedding too and it’s a long weekend so I can stay at home even longer..
The next day, I contacted my friend in Surabaya who worked in a travel agent and asking him whether he can get me a ticket to Surabaya.. After a few minutes or hours, he manage to get me a ticket to Surabaya at Thursday and back to Jakarta at Tuesday.. It’s the cheapest he can get me.. I didn’t even hesitate for a moment and say ok, even though I have to skip 8 hours class for that.. All I can think is a longer time in Surabaya, what else can I asked..
To speed up the story, its Thursday and I’m so thrill to go home.. I’m impatiently counting down how many hours its going to take before I finally reached home.. After my class is finish, I stayed in CCF, like I usually do, to read the newspaper and online for 30 minutes, just to kill time, and than having lunch.. During my lunch, its start raining hard.. Usually when its raining hard like that, it won’t last to long, but that day the rain took all day.. On my count, usually it takes an hours from CCF to my boarding house, and then I need at least 2 hours from my boarding house to the airport and I should be in the airport an hour before the plane took off.. My plane is scheduled to take off at 18.50.. So imagine how terrified I am, knowing that at 15.30 I’m still at CCF, the raining didn’t even get any slower and the fact that I haven’t pack at all and only have like 100.000 in my pocket!! Which mean I still need to go to the ATM machine before I go to the airport.. I already asked the security to get me a taxi since 14.00, but he couldn’t get any, he said with rain like this I usually have to wait a long times before I found one.. At 15.00 I asked the secretary in CCF to call the taxi company, to get a cab for me.. I’m getting even worried when it is so difficult to contact any taxi company and when we’re able to reach one, the taxi is available in one hour.. Yup you heard me right, the taxi is available at 16.00! I’m become even more frighten because according to my calculation, if I’ll get to that cab I’ll reach my boarding house at 17.00 (if somehow in that office hour and rain, there is no traffic jam), which mean I’m only have 1 hour or 1 and a half hour to reach airport, it just impossible to do, specially in that office hour and rain like that.. In that confusing condition, it turns out that the security was able to find a cab for me, it was already 15.30.. So I jumped right away to that taxi and keep worrying whether I’m going to make it or not..
When I’m in taxi, I remembered I haven’t cancel my order and I know neither the telephone number of CCF nor that secretary cell phone.. I text my friend and luckily she knew it and reply soon.. When I’m back at Jakarta and told her my story, she told me that at that moment she was going to sleep (she was already in bed) and she already silence her cell phone so she actually didn’t hear my sms but somehow she felt someone is text her, so she checked her cell phone and found my sms and reply it quickly.. After got the number I call CCF and asked the secretary to cancel my order..
After may be 15 minutes in the taxi, I can already see the effect of the raining, the traffic jam is so crowded that for the next 15 minutes the taxi didn’t even move.. From the beginning, I found the taxi driver is very thoughtful, I already spoke to him about my condition and he try his best to find a short cut to my boarding house, but the traffic jam is really serious.. So he gave me an idea to take an ojek (motor taxi), at first I’m hesitated because its still raining outside, but after a few minutes it became very clear to me that I won’t be able to reach my boarding house on time unless I take an ojek.. What happened next is shocking, the taxi driver go out from the taxi and search for an ojek for me, not only once or twice but four times until he finally found an ojek for me and don’t forget its still raining outside.. What even more stunning every time he left his taxi, he stop the rate from going up, so I didn’t have to pay him more.. After the first three times and didn’t found any ojek, he try to get my a bajaj but none would go that far to my boarding house specially in the rain and the traffic jam like that.. When he go out the fourth times, he finally found an ojek to me.. I checked the rate, and its written that I have to pay 24000 but I felt so grateful in him so I gave him 30000.. When I go out from his taxi, he even warn me to ask for the price first before take the ojek.. I rarely see a person like him who didn’t know me but gave such sacrifice.. Right now I’m thinking if he’s looking for a profit in me, he wouldn’t offer me to take an ojek, he will drive me to my boarding house himself, its going to take a long time, and at the end I’m going to have pay him a lot of money, at least much bigger then what I gave him that day.. Even if he wants to help me, he can just offer me to take the ojek and just leave me and then let me do the search alone, instead he’s the one that go out in the rain to search for an ojek for me, accompany me until he found an ojek, stop his rate every time he go out from his taxi and even warn me to ask for the price for the ojek in the beginning so I didn’t get cheated..
The ojek ask 20000 to take me to my boarding house, I agreed immediately.. I’m very lucky to find an ojek driver that know well the route to my boarding house.. He didn’t take the normal route instead he took the small route, the route is so small that if it isn’t an ojek, the other vehicle won’t be able to pass by.. When a bus normally took an hour to go to my boarding house, he only took 15 minutes.. I felt truly fortunate because if the bajaj agree to take me to my boarding house, it probably going to take longer time to reach my boarding house.. There is a lot of bajaj at that moment but all of them refuse the offer of the taxi driver.. While in the taxi I already ask my sister to pack for me and give a precise instruction on what I want to carry to Surabaya.. I reach my boarding house at 16.30, I took a quick shower and then run to the nearest ATM machine and look for the taxi.. Normally it takes nearly an hour to get a taxi near my boarding house.. The last time I went home to Surabaya, it took 45 minutes just to get a taxi, the same things happens for my sister.. But somehow I can get the taxi so quickly even my sister surprise on how fast I can get the taxi.. From the very beginning I already told the taxi driver that I’m in hurry and asking him to drive faster which he did.. Another lucky thing is somehow that day the traffic jam didn’t as severe as it used to be.. It took only one and a half hour to get to the airport (which normally going to take 2 hours) and I reach airport at 18.10, just in time for check in..
While in CCF in prayed to God so there will be a delay on my flight.. People say be careful on what you’re hoping for, it might come true.. And it did, the flight delayed for like 30 minutes but I’m too relieved, I can get to the airport in time, I didn’t complain at all.. I can finally going home..
There is so many lesson I can learn that day.. The first is the kindness of many people showed me that day, the security and secretary in CCF, my friend who reply my sms, the taxi drivers, the ojek driver and my sister.. Each of them played their own role and without them, it just seems impossible to get to the airport in time.. I didn’t surprised if people that we knew well show us their compassion but in that day, many people that I didn’t know before, like the security in CCF, the taxi drivers, and the ojek driver give their best to help me and I’m truly indebted to them.. The second is never quit trying and believing.. Although I’m really panic that day, I didn’t give hope or quit trying to go home.. I’ll try my best to find a way to took me to the airport, even when it means running looking for a cab or take an ojek, both in the middle of raining.. Lastly, I can’t help notice how many ‘coincidence’ happened that day.. I’m one of the people who didn’t believe in coincidence, what I believe is God’s will.. I always try to be independent and doing things on my own with my own way but that that day I learned to lean more in God because I won’t be able to go to the airport in time if He didn’t send the right person to help me that day.. I realized how weak and useless I am if I count on myself that day and didn’t get any help from anybody.. I can truly felt the presence of destiny somehow guiding me to get to next right step so I can get to the airport in time and safely.. As the plane start to took off and heading to Surabaya, I was thinking maybe God used the rain to teach me to lean more to Him, that no matter what happened I can count on Him, and I realize what no matter what plan I had for the future can fall that easily if God turning his back on me..
The next day, I contacted my friend in Surabaya who worked in a travel agent and asking him whether he can get me a ticket to Surabaya.. After a few minutes or hours, he manage to get me a ticket to Surabaya at Thursday and back to Jakarta at Tuesday.. It’s the cheapest he can get me.. I didn’t even hesitate for a moment and say ok, even though I have to skip 8 hours class for that.. All I can think is a longer time in Surabaya, what else can I asked..
To speed up the story, its Thursday and I’m so thrill to go home.. I’m impatiently counting down how many hours its going to take before I finally reached home.. After my class is finish, I stayed in CCF, like I usually do, to read the newspaper and online for 30 minutes, just to kill time, and than having lunch.. During my lunch, its start raining hard.. Usually when its raining hard like that, it won’t last to long, but that day the rain took all day.. On my count, usually it takes an hours from CCF to my boarding house, and then I need at least 2 hours from my boarding house to the airport and I should be in the airport an hour before the plane took off.. My plane is scheduled to take off at 18.50.. So imagine how terrified I am, knowing that at 15.30 I’m still at CCF, the raining didn’t even get any slower and the fact that I haven’t pack at all and only have like 100.000 in my pocket!! Which mean I still need to go to the ATM machine before I go to the airport.. I already asked the security to get me a taxi since 14.00, but he couldn’t get any, he said with rain like this I usually have to wait a long times before I found one.. At 15.00 I asked the secretary in CCF to call the taxi company, to get a cab for me.. I’m getting even worried when it is so difficult to contact any taxi company and when we’re able to reach one, the taxi is available in one hour.. Yup you heard me right, the taxi is available at 16.00! I’m become even more frighten because according to my calculation, if I’ll get to that cab I’ll reach my boarding house at 17.00 (if somehow in that office hour and rain, there is no traffic jam), which mean I’m only have 1 hour or 1 and a half hour to reach airport, it just impossible to do, specially in that office hour and rain like that.. In that confusing condition, it turns out that the security was able to find a cab for me, it was already 15.30.. So I jumped right away to that taxi and keep worrying whether I’m going to make it or not..
When I’m in taxi, I remembered I haven’t cancel my order and I know neither the telephone number of CCF nor that secretary cell phone.. I text my friend and luckily she knew it and reply soon.. When I’m back at Jakarta and told her my story, she told me that at that moment she was going to sleep (she was already in bed) and she already silence her cell phone so she actually didn’t hear my sms but somehow she felt someone is text her, so she checked her cell phone and found my sms and reply it quickly.. After got the number I call CCF and asked the secretary to cancel my order..
After may be 15 minutes in the taxi, I can already see the effect of the raining, the traffic jam is so crowded that for the next 15 minutes the taxi didn’t even move.. From the beginning, I found the taxi driver is very thoughtful, I already spoke to him about my condition and he try his best to find a short cut to my boarding house, but the traffic jam is really serious.. So he gave me an idea to take an ojek (motor taxi), at first I’m hesitated because its still raining outside, but after a few minutes it became very clear to me that I won’t be able to reach my boarding house on time unless I take an ojek.. What happened next is shocking, the taxi driver go out from the taxi and search for an ojek for me, not only once or twice but four times until he finally found an ojek for me and don’t forget its still raining outside.. What even more stunning every time he left his taxi, he stop the rate from going up, so I didn’t have to pay him more.. After the first three times and didn’t found any ojek, he try to get my a bajaj but none would go that far to my boarding house specially in the rain and the traffic jam like that.. When he go out the fourth times, he finally found an ojek to me.. I checked the rate, and its written that I have to pay 24000 but I felt so grateful in him so I gave him 30000.. When I go out from his taxi, he even warn me to ask for the price first before take the ojek.. I rarely see a person like him who didn’t know me but gave such sacrifice.. Right now I’m thinking if he’s looking for a profit in me, he wouldn’t offer me to take an ojek, he will drive me to my boarding house himself, its going to take a long time, and at the end I’m going to have pay him a lot of money, at least much bigger then what I gave him that day.. Even if he wants to help me, he can just offer me to take the ojek and just leave me and then let me do the search alone, instead he’s the one that go out in the rain to search for an ojek for me, accompany me until he found an ojek, stop his rate every time he go out from his taxi and even warn me to ask for the price for the ojek in the beginning so I didn’t get cheated..
The ojek ask 20000 to take me to my boarding house, I agreed immediately.. I’m very lucky to find an ojek driver that know well the route to my boarding house.. He didn’t take the normal route instead he took the small route, the route is so small that if it isn’t an ojek, the other vehicle won’t be able to pass by.. When a bus normally took an hour to go to my boarding house, he only took 15 minutes.. I felt truly fortunate because if the bajaj agree to take me to my boarding house, it probably going to take longer time to reach my boarding house.. There is a lot of bajaj at that moment but all of them refuse the offer of the taxi driver.. While in the taxi I already ask my sister to pack for me and give a precise instruction on what I want to carry to Surabaya.. I reach my boarding house at 16.30, I took a quick shower and then run to the nearest ATM machine and look for the taxi.. Normally it takes nearly an hour to get a taxi near my boarding house.. The last time I went home to Surabaya, it took 45 minutes just to get a taxi, the same things happens for my sister.. But somehow I can get the taxi so quickly even my sister surprise on how fast I can get the taxi.. From the very beginning I already told the taxi driver that I’m in hurry and asking him to drive faster which he did.. Another lucky thing is somehow that day the traffic jam didn’t as severe as it used to be.. It took only one and a half hour to get to the airport (which normally going to take 2 hours) and I reach airport at 18.10, just in time for check in..
While in CCF in prayed to God so there will be a delay on my flight.. People say be careful on what you’re hoping for, it might come true.. And it did, the flight delayed for like 30 minutes but I’m too relieved, I can get to the airport in time, I didn’t complain at all.. I can finally going home..
There is so many lesson I can learn that day.. The first is the kindness of many people showed me that day, the security and secretary in CCF, my friend who reply my sms, the taxi drivers, the ojek driver and my sister.. Each of them played their own role and without them, it just seems impossible to get to the airport in time.. I didn’t surprised if people that we knew well show us their compassion but in that day, many people that I didn’t know before, like the security in CCF, the taxi drivers, and the ojek driver give their best to help me and I’m truly indebted to them.. The second is never quit trying and believing.. Although I’m really panic that day, I didn’t give hope or quit trying to go home.. I’ll try my best to find a way to took me to the airport, even when it means running looking for a cab or take an ojek, both in the middle of raining.. Lastly, I can’t help notice how many ‘coincidence’ happened that day.. I’m one of the people who didn’t believe in coincidence, what I believe is God’s will.. I always try to be independent and doing things on my own with my own way but that that day I learned to lean more in God because I won’t be able to go to the airport in time if He didn’t send the right person to help me that day.. I realized how weak and useless I am if I count on myself that day and didn’t get any help from anybody.. I can truly felt the presence of destiny somehow guiding me to get to next right step so I can get to the airport in time and safely.. As the plane start to took off and heading to Surabaya, I was thinking maybe God used the rain to teach me to lean more to Him, that no matter what happened I can count on Him, and I realize what no matter what plan I had for the future can fall that easily if God turning his back on me..
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