When I’m in jkt, I’m counting my days until I can come to sby.. I’m always say to practically everyone, that I miss my hometown and can’t wait to get there soon.. Life in jkt is hard, no doubt about it.. That’s may be one of the reason why I miss my hometown so much, beside most of my family n friends reside in sby.. Also living in sby is pretty much easy.. Not so much responsibility, not so much drama and I hv parent that can help me..
But the strangest thing happened.. The moment I’m in sby, I feel bored.. The afternoon is the hardest coz I got nothing to do.. I usually spent my time with talking to my mom or go online in warnet but its obviously that I having nothing to do.. Even went out with my friends in the evening didn’t help much.. Its still fun of course but I guess the level of its excitement is not the same as it used to be.. Not that I didn’t like living in sby its just somehow sby didn’t feel the same to me anymore.. Suddenly I miss jkt..
I began to wonder why until a few days after, when I pick out Chris, we’re going to tp, I brought up what I felt.. He has the same story with me.. He come from Semarang (smg) and then continue his study in sby.. When he’s in sby, he always miss smg but when he’s already in smg he miss sby.. He then said that maybe people need to grow.. What he said really struck me which inspire me to write this blog.. Yeah people do need to grow.. I guess there is a level where you just can’t get back to your ‘past life’ and I’ve reached that level when I’m moving in to jkt.. From now on, I can’t see my hometown the way I see it before.. I know now that when I can’t coming back to my hometown still hoping that I’m the same person as I used to be before I leave sby.. Everything has changed.. Or maybe I can say that I changed or jkt changed me, I dunno..
What more concern me is who I am rite now and what should I do now knowing that I’ve changed so much.. It remains a mystery for me.. All I can say is I’m growing and it won’t stop.. May be its because of the goal I set up for myself.. And to reach that goal I can’t be the person who I used to be so I need to grow..
But the strangest thing happened.. The moment I’m in sby, I feel bored.. The afternoon is the hardest coz I got nothing to do.. I usually spent my time with talking to my mom or go online in warnet but its obviously that I having nothing to do.. Even went out with my friends in the evening didn’t help much.. Its still fun of course but I guess the level of its excitement is not the same as it used to be.. Not that I didn’t like living in sby its just somehow sby didn’t feel the same to me anymore.. Suddenly I miss jkt..
I began to wonder why until a few days after, when I pick out Chris, we’re going to tp, I brought up what I felt.. He has the same story with me.. He come from Semarang (smg) and then continue his study in sby.. When he’s in sby, he always miss smg but when he’s already in smg he miss sby.. He then said that maybe people need to grow.. What he said really struck me which inspire me to write this blog.. Yeah people do need to grow.. I guess there is a level where you just can’t get back to your ‘past life’ and I’ve reached that level when I’m moving in to jkt.. From now on, I can’t see my hometown the way I see it before.. I know now that when I can’t coming back to my hometown still hoping that I’m the same person as I used to be before I leave sby.. Everything has changed.. Or maybe I can say that I changed or jkt changed me, I dunno..
What more concern me is who I am rite now and what should I do now knowing that I’ve changed so much.. It remains a mystery for me.. All I can say is I’m growing and it won’t stop.. May be its because of the goal I set up for myself.. And to reach that goal I can’t be the person who I used to be so I need to grow..
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